My Radiant Hell – Coming Soon


“Silencing Echoes”, which was the original name of my personal healing memoir, takes a look at the various ways we attempt to silence the painful echoes from our past with frequent damaging effects on our health and spirituality as well as those around us. This non-fiction book is based on the parts of my life that not only hurt me the most, but taught me the most. The primary focus is not on the horror, but the healing and choices I somehow made to not be a victim in spite of my history.  “My echoes” of abuse were very difficult to silence. But I did. And, sadly, my story is not even close to the worst stories of abuse that exist out there.

The book has morphed from those beginning days, and has been renamed to “My Radiant Hell – Healing Tidbits from a Wounded Soul.”  While writing, I discovered I no longer needed to share all the horror – I needed to share the healing.

So, this new book, coming out soon is going to touch everyone’s heart – whether they are the victim or the perpetrator. There is help here for everyone – victims and readers alike. And yes, there is help for the ones who use violence in its various forms to control others.

When will this book arrive?  End of 2017.  Maybe sooner.

Check back for updates.

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Earth Spirituality

I am a practicing herbalist. I love plants – I feel them.  I see them in dreams. Plants heal without injuring the body – short of poisonous plants of course. Herbs and clean food help the body heal naturally and without side effects. How was this all learned by the ancient ones? Why does it still work?

Simplicity is probably the answer. Plants simply balance the unbalanced.  I for one have been pretty unbalanced.

There are many ways of gathering “information” from this world we exist in. One older yet well-known practice has been used by ancient indigenous cultures from before written records were kept. The information was handed down orally, through song, dance, pictorially, and by passing the memory to the many generations that followed them. Each culture had a unique way of receiving and learning the uses of plant medicines from the plants themselves – and they received even more information from the Earth herself.

Following is an excerpt from the book “Sacred Plant Medicine” authored by Stephen Buhner that touches on how to restore our connection with all life – to awaken ourselves to the beauty and possibilities of life.

“For those on the Earth-centered spiritual path, the Earth itself is the place of worship; all things posses a soul, every tree, stone, and root. To those in relationship with Earth, the Earth, and each part of the Earth is a manifestation of the sacred, a creation of Spirit. Both the whole of Earth and each part of it can manifest itself as the ganz andere, the totally other. Within Earth-centered cultures the stone and the tree are venerated as an expression of the sacred, a creation of God. Oftentimes, either the ritual or through direct manifestation of the sacred, the stone or tree begins to exhibit a totally other reality. It begins to manifest the sacred archetype of its kind. Far from the pipeline to a deeper and more meaningful reality. And within Earth-centered religious practices, individuals spend many years, sometimes a lifetime, in developing deep relationship with the aspect of the sacred that has revealed itself.”

29041653_sThis is who I am. This is how I help heal imbalance. Simplicity – Not complexity. I use the Earth, her flowers, plants, foods and very much her spirit that exists in me. Used in different fashions, and especially when used through the practice of becoming present with all that is, is how we can find peace. We discover an easier way to let go of our painful stories and finally come out of the shadows. We begin to live an authentic life filled with joy and wonder rather than hatred and judgments of self and others.

This posting is partially an update of where I am with my personal healing program.  “Wading Into Wild Water” is the journal of this healing.

You Have The PowerThis posting is all about who I am and what I do – it can help you begin your own healing journey.

Its time to hear your own voice and let it be heard by others.

Join me in healing. Comment back. Reach out.


Writing with Passion – Healing with Purpose

Some of you may not know I am a writer and a Doctor of Natural Health.  I share that information to set the stage as you begin to read the words that follow.  I have struggled for some time on how to blend both “parts” of me together, and today, I discovered that I no longer need to blend them together because they sustain both me and each other – they are a natural blend.  I now choose to present them to the world differently – in the form of mind-stretching writings about healing among other things while continuing to personally heal those who seek it – in perfect balance and harmony.

The following is from my journal where I
finally discovered what already existed naturally. 

25086713_m“Nature and natural have been part of me from the beginning of my life.  As I grew older and created and carried the burdens of survival and safety, as well as the beliefs and illusions that come with them, I began to people-please and hide to remain safe.  During this time, my core values – the truth of me – were swept aside so I could become what I needed to be to survive and co-exist in my everyday chaotic world.

Recently, in the space of a micro-second, I remembered that as a child I played in dirt, ate dirt, and loved to drink water from rivers that contained small visible particles of decaying leaf matter, some sand, a smidge of slime and a big dose of healthy nourishment and mysterious things that used to exist in those rivers.  It never harmed my tummy.

It is called “wild water”.  I’d sit by the river and study how it forcefully tumbled and tossed its way around boulders and created angry foam along the edges.  My soul would ride the water for a bit and when I was thirsty, I drank from the river.  It was a wonderful fulfilling visceral experience on an instinctual level.  That was my truth back then in spite of the cruelty that existed in my life.

The happiness and contentment of those moments frequently sneak into my conscience memory.  Back then, wild water contained all the elements of life in a healthy form.  Through reflection and self-discovery, today I choose to begin drinking “wild water” again, to rebuild my soul, redesign my life and support my purpose.  Through wild water I will sustain my energy, my path, and introduce to the world my natural intuitive ability to deeply perceive the healing needs and beauty that lives within the souls of all people.

I am a guide and advocate for the people who are lost, forgotten or ignored that may have by choice or circumstance, forgotten how to be healthy and whole.  And as such, together, in gentle collaboration, we will begin the journey of discovering the personal quintessence of balance that exists within all people and bring light into the darkness.

My life’s purpose is to reach out as far as possible to guide and empower others to become healthy, balanced and fully present in this world.  One moment at a time – one person at a time.  Naturally.”

Waking My Inner Lion

Sometimes when I write I need to touch my soul and one of the easiest ways to do that for me is with music.  Headphones on, volume turned up high.  My body begins to move first, then my soul and heart and finally my higher self opens up wide.



The truth of me free of judgement.

All that exists is the center of me.

This is one of my favorite pieces of music because it gets straight into the passion that lives within me and the animal I adore.  (Plus, I play at playing the harp so it’s a tiny bit real).

It gets me into my flow every time.


Live 2004 (HD)
Credit:  Andrea Vollenweider